cupcakes oolala

I feel like I am going crazy. I mean even more than I already am. I couldn't concentrate at work today. So much so that I made a few mistakes and apparently seemed really off my rocker as people were asking what was up. baha. It sounds so funny when I write it down.

Genuinely though, all I wanted to do the entire day was come home and make cupcakes. I found this Guinness and Bailey's cupcakes here http://nookandpantry.blogspot.com/2009/02/guinness-chocolate-cupcake-with-baileys.html . I was preoccupied by cupcakes. Among other things that is. I am stressed over so much stuff that... I just want to bake. and bake. and bake. I'm not sure that it is healthy, but it sure is cheaper than therapy. [lol]

When someone directly asked me what was wrong earlier, I realized... I don't like talking about emotions. Like face to face, or out loud, I just don't really do it. Even with my best friends I just can't really articulate. I'm really insecure when it comes to emotions. Which sounds funny. Most people are insecure about their weight, or the shape of their face, or their nose, or something like that. I'm not saying I'm not insecure about my love handles, because I totally am, I think I am just sooo much more insecure about emotions. So with that being said, I am super stressed about my business class. We've only had like four of the nine classes that we should have had, give me a break! It's really hard to learn material that you don't ever do in class. grrr. Spanish sucks, I am having a super hard time with the past/present tense and the whole indirect direct object. oh and of course the reflexive verbs. yikes.

anyway. what a negative post.